RantingJodoh I

 After long time not writing.

Today is beautiful date 10102020. Many of my friends get hitched today. But semua jauh2. Bercakap soal kahwin ni buat aku ponder. Kenapa la jodoh aku ni x sampai2 lagi. Dahlah most of my crush dah kawen. Tinggal berapa je lagi. Tu pun mungkin semua dah berpunya. 

Yeah its kind of frustrated. Even boyfriend pun i dont have right now. Few years coming will enter 3 series. Am i too ugly? Am i too timid? Am i too bored? Why no one not interested to get know more about me?? Whyyyy???? May be all the questions above is right. May be...

Anyway whatever laa. I need to build my own happiness. Happiness has no relation with relationship. Without bf or husband, still i can be happy. Yeahh.. *pat pat my own shoulder

Enough ranting this time. See you later 😘

DrKlinik 1

Hello and assalamualaikum. Long time not write. 

Adaptation adjustment period took few months back then. From hospital to clinic. Indeed i entered my comfort zone. Initially i was keen to study and learn anything. Lazziness then took place. .ake me so lazy to read and study.

Working at klinik kesihatan and having chance to rotate all OPD, NCD and MCH really give me great experience and exposure. Thank goodness now i know basic anc scan. Me feel so proud. 

Everyone also has to rotate in sampling either ili or health care sampling. So basically i had taken sample few times with gowning and doffing experience. 

Few months back on hari raya ketiga, i had a dreadful experience handling 1 case. Young teenage girl come to our clinic p/w nausea + vomiting for past 1/12 a/w minimal abd pain. No other family member with similar presentation. Lmp usod. She is oku card holder for slow learner. She didn't talk at all. All complaints was explained by her sister. Though she looks well i mean not lethargy. So i suspect she got uti. I ordered ufeme and due to abd pain, i want tro ectopic even though she denied si (oku slow learner, not really believe her word actually). As expected leu 2+ but shockingly upt come out positive. Still couldn't believe the result, i did tas. Tadaaa iugs seen with fetal heart, estimated 8w pregnancy. Menggigil tangan. Asking again si history. Strongly denied any si. I asked my collegue's hand. And she break the news to the sister. Her sister burst into tears with anger telling her to admit and inform  who is the partner. We gave them time to cool down and talk to each other and the answer really break my heart 💔💔💔-tp confidential to mention the culprit here. So need to file police report and refer oscc. Actually this one affected many people, thank you very much for helping me. And i heard o+g decide TOP for this patient. Almost 1 week depress over this case.

Also having chance to remove and insert iucd. Priceless experiece because successful in 1 attempt. My luck got nice uterus position.

Last week i did time 2 gowning while incharging ili/covid. Huhhh its really ridiculous 🤯😤

Being scolded by patient. Facing problem with bangla for MC, poking endless neonates and children and many more laa. Tak tetlarat nk tulis semua. Hahaha.

Anyway next week my 2+1 mo contract will be ended. I already sent my renewal contract 2years to my PT incharge. Seeing my friends got place in private university make me think 'should i also take the same path?'

Still podering, is there any chance for me to stay in kkm? Really i love working under kkm but are they need me? 

The hardest things is to say goodbye

Life is short. Enjoy the moment. Be with someone you love and light up your mood.

Things end but memories last forever. Thank you my families for bearing with all my babbling endlessly about work. Thank you my collegues during HO and MO time for enduring my weakness. Thank you my bosses from 1st posting in surgery till my floMO time sharing all your knowledge and wisdom. I learned a lot especially after being MO.

Especially my neonatologist dr rozitah. Her humble, cool and wisdom really inspiring me. Really you deserve all you have now. And really hope God keep giving you great health physically and mentally, and shower you with joy, happiness and His blessing infinitely. Keep inspiring us.

Also dr fadhilah and dr haslizawati. Thank you for bearing with us. Not to be forgotten dr shahiniz, my lovely beautiful general paeds specialist. Truly you are not only having external beauty but also beautiful inside. Dr wan hanifah, for taking care of us HO and also MO. Dr khanisa, dr farohah and dr raihan. Dr lee and dr kajen our young and wise sp.

My dear floating friends. Wani, thiah, ain, aadila, aiman, cerahh, thifah, mia, kak lah n jen. Really you are my treasured memories in paeds. My senior collegues. Qila, kak zu, dr hanif, dr izwan, kak diyana, dr syairazi, dr aiman, dr badrul, dr syamsul, kak hazar, kak wan alyaa, kak wan siti, kak ja, kak armi, dr husni, dr muslim, dr hafizi, kak alia n all others lagi laa yang tak tersebut. Thank you for your kindness and all the guidances. May Allah bless you all.

Our time during perinatal meeting, CME, audit will remains as memories. Thank you for experience.

Last but not least, im sorry for any incoveniance because of me. Everything happened for a reason.People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Goodbye HRPZ II. We started with a simple hello but ended with a not so complicated goodbye. Even if we can't be together in the end, I'm glad that you were a part of my life.

Tak larat nk upload semua gambar. Tp ni antara riang ria sepanjang di HRPZ II

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My first post in 2020 is at the end of january. Congratz dearself for staying strong. Its really a culture shock for me being in adaptation period still. Fortunately im floating MO in paeds with sp cool walaupun mostly adalah female. Blessing with great collegue both floating and senior MO lessen the burden.

Learnt a lot of things especially EQ laa. All the way are experience. Tercampak sana sini tu biasa. Al maklum laa floating. But alhamdulillah survived so far.

May Allah ease my way for a better beautiful future insyaAllah